Under the Glittering Light of Setting Sun
Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007I was home alone, my friends had gone to work and I opted to stay home. The setting sun created a magical streak of glittering light on the pool outside my window, enticing mine eyes, and invited me to dive in.
The refreshing cold blast of water splashed over my body as I dive, it made me feel like all my cares and concerns were washed away. I laid flat on my back with my feet relaxed and slightly apart. My arms were at my side, moving slowly side-to-side. I saw clouds giving form and substance to the endless sky.
And as my eyes closed, I began to imagine how I would like to be living right at that moment. I wanted to be happy (although I am, perhaps always be happy), curious (as usual), and be in love (loving a man who loved me).
Inhale… I felt the air passed through my chest to my stomach… I did very little motion to remain afloat while my arms were at my side, moving slowly side-to-side.
I remember the girl I’ve been up until then: weak but trying to give the impression of strength. Fearful of expressing but telling herself it wasn’t fear — it was the wisdom of someone who knew what reality was.
Suddenly I felt that my body was sinking, I raised my chin and put my head further back in the water. Then again I relaxed…while my arms were at my side, moving slowly side-to-side.
I still can’t believe I’m here. Dreams came into reality. It wasn’t really a dream, though, it was just an idea. An idea instilled by people who cares. People who initiated the draft and helped me executed the plan.
It was Les who gave me the idea, he’s quite sophisticated yet has tremendous symphathy to others and try to help as much as he can. Although calm in the surface, he is intense and passionate…I’m very sure of that.
Together with Les is a young couple Jerry and Kaye who helped me to make things happen. This young couple has thought me that love is always new, regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation. And they inspired me that marriage is such a great thing, love always takes us somewhere.
Of course whatever great things that happend to me here won’t be successful without the prayers of my friends and family. They gave me strenghts beyond my capability.
The Idea begets Dream, Dream begets Action, Action begets Hope, Hope begets Faith, and Faith begets Understanding…it’s a never ending line.
What you think is what you get, I thought, but not all the time…There are things, perhaps, someone or something that aren’t really meant for me…and I’m beginning to understand that.
I felt that my soul was bathed in the light of understanding that led me to acceptance. I’m glad it wasn’t meant for me. I really do.
I remember one night, I knelt down and utter a short prayer: "Thou shall blessed me".
I’m not worthy indeed, but He still blessed me. Apparently, God’s choice doesn’t depend on how a person behaves. He can deal with anyone, no matter how flawned, who passionately pursues Him.
He blessed me not with gold, which occurs as nuggets or grains in rocks and in alluvial deposits…but He made me as malleable as gold. He blessed me not either with silver or diamond …but He gave me precious people that I can cherished as precious gemstones.
I hope and pray that Thou Shall Blessed these people, that Thou shall give them the desires of their hearts. Amen.
As written by Paulo Coelho "My heart once again began to speak to me, and it was happy because I was once again willing to listen to what it had to say."
