My Embryonic Mind

For quite a while I was glad to be gone from there, a place sickly sweet and suffocating…but now this longing!

Click here Sing with me…

Nais kong maihip ng hanging walang patutung’han
Parang ibong wala ring hangarin kundi ang lumipad nang lumipad
Nais kong lumipad

Nais ko ring maagos ng alon saan man mapadpad
Kahit na isdang mumuntiin, hangari’y lumangoy nang lumangoy
Nais kong lumangoy

CHORUS:
Nais kong malibot ang mundo sa kanyang kasuluk-sulukan
Nais kong makita ang paligid kong puno ng kagandahan
Nais kong makadama ng kakaibang damdamin kahit minsan man lang
Habang ako ay may buhay, wala nang hangarin pang tunay
Nais ko…nais ko…

REFRAIN:
Nais kong maulit ang buhay kung may pagkakataon
Upang mamalas ang mga bagay-bagay na ‘di ko natanto sa aking buhay
Nais kong maulit pa, ulit-ulitin pa ang buhay ko.

Repeat STANZA 1, CHORUS and REFRAIN
(Nais ko) Nais kong mabuhay muli
(Nais ko) Nais kong maulit muli
Ulitin muli, ulitin muli, paulit-ulit, ulit, muli
(Nais Kong ibalik paulit-ulit, ulit muli)
Ito ang nais ko… Nais ko… Ito ang nais ko

Maersk Rig Tour

The little-old-me was always trying to protect and care for that “someone”. And if I could find a book detailing every minute of his life, I wouldn’t sleep or eat until I read every last paragraph…Now, no longer have I constantly thought about being with “him”. And for some bizarre reason, that “special” someone has suddenly become NO more attractive to me. So tell me… am I still in love?

Well… I shouldn’t say anything more lest I eat my words in the end.

It sucks to be me… but only for now

Cheers! One month ends, a new one begins. ‘Twas a sudden whim that took Karen and I to City Space, and it was also the 2^nd time I landed at the 70^th floor of Swissotel Stamford, first, being the surprise birthday bash for a friend named Marlon at Equinox Restaurant, mid this year.

Equinox Restaurant has a better view of the entire Esplanade area from its glass panels, but I preferred the City Space because of its lovely jazz music. A non-alcoholic drink costs me a hefty price of S$20 bill though, but the ambiance, the great panoramic view of the entire city and the relaxing music really are worth paying for.

Thanks to Karen who urged me to find a place for kickback and relax, we only planned to have J. Co donut at Raffles City Mall, though.

upnext… the Asian Civilization Museum.

P.S

1. Make sure you have the “front-row seats”

2. The “front-row seats” couldn’t accommodate a group of more than 4 friends.

3. A good place to relax.

Try spelling “stressed” backward and u will know the solution for it.

I once heard this song sang by Cherry Valparaiso (girl if you happen to read this post, please give me the sheet music)

… I wish I can sing this to anybody who is feeling down and lost, anyone who feels lonely… and those people who think they’re the worst person ever lived…. I’d rather say, anyone like me who stumbles, and gets weary of life’s routine.

A little boy made a boat
Made it out of wood
Put it on the river
String tied the two together
But the current broke the string
And the boat drifted away

A little boy made a promise
With teardrops in his eyes
That someday he’ll reclaim the boat
And bring back the two together

And it didn’t take too long
When he saw the boat
In the window of the store
So he save all his money
And he bought the boat
And as he walked away
You could hear him say

Chorus:
Now you’re mine, mine
Two times you’re mine
Once because I made you
Twice because I bought you
Now you’re mine, mine
Two times you’re mine,
Bought once because
I Love You so

God made the man
Made it out of Love
Put it on the world of love
And love binds the two … together

But the man broke that love
And the man drifted away

God made a Promise
From His throne on high
That one day He’ll reclaim the man
And bring back the two together

And it didn’t take too long
He sent Jesus His only Son
Then Jesus crucified
On the Cross that day
And as He suffered
You could hear Him say

Chorus:
Now you’re mine, mine
Two times you’re mine
Once because I made you
Twice because I bought you
Now you’re mine, mine
Two times you’re mine,
Bought once because
I Love You so

When I first played poker, my friends told me that they cannot tell by looking at my face if my cards are good or bad. Not that I’m good at bluffing, I just really do not know whether my cards are good or bad… a little ignorance helps. Forrest Gump’s momma once said “Life is like a box of chocolate, you’ll never know what you’ll gonna get”… I’d say…it’s like a casual poker game where everyone has the right to “deal”. You can “act” at the required time, or be in the dark as a “blind”. You can “bleed”, when you are consistently losing … and give away “bleeding chips”. You may “call” to match a bet or you can just “check” if you don”t want to open. You may “raise” and force all players to call or rather “fold” and forfeit interest in the pot. You may also go “all in” if you have insufficient remaining stake to “call” … but hey…do not expect to win an amount over your total stake. In poker, like no other vying games… you can be a good player if you have that “poker face”. Just make sure you keep your emotions by yourself by holding your cards close to your vest.

… so how is it related to life? I don’t know… I bluffed, as if I know.

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We all have the right to deal in life, we can choose to play… or fold and play again for the next game.

I guess it’s just a part of my never-grow-up nature to constantly wonder, "What if…"  What if I had lived when Jesus was born on the earth?  Would I have known who he was?  Would I have recognized a poor baby born in humble surroundings as the Savior of the world?

One thing for sure I know, the Great Carpenter can look down upon us and see what messes we have made of our lives. He can take that mess we’ve made, that awful mistake that we committed and He can begin to repair the damage and allow the healing to start. If only we allow Him to do so.

"…the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me…" (John 15:26 KJV)

And so, "I think my heart would know him… for I can hear the Spirit whisper, ‘This is God’s own Son.’

Click PLAY to listen, very relaxing music.

Whole Again
Lyrics:

I come before the throne of God
My kneeling soul is filled with wond’ring awe
As the Savior’s tender mercy heals the wounds of all my sin
I praise the love that makes me whole again

I come in hope; I come in faith
To feel the touch of His redeeming grace
As I offer him my broken heart He heals the hurt within
And I praise the love that makes me whole again

Alleluia! my healing spirit cries
As He reaches out his hand to bid me rise
Alleluia! praise the Healer of all men
Who makes me more than what I was
And sees beyond what I am

And when I fall He lifts me up
Restores my soul, removes my bitter cup
For He heals my every heartache,and He carries all my pain
And I praise the love that makes me whole again

<< Photo from AsianGeographic Magazine (Lost Horizons by Kris Leboutillier)

Now I understand why Mike would want to trade his cam for a single-lens reflex camera.

Lost Horizons written by Kris Leboutillier inspired me to be a little serious with my photos, not that I would travel a week in a rocky mountains just to get a spot. But I would consider Kris’ tips in photography, that pictures I take must capture the adjectives I see in front of me. She mentioned that amateur shots often lack a strong subject. That’s me! Well… for the meantime, I would make used of my ixus digicam and try to take photos that can communicate the mood I’d like to convey.

So what do I want to convey with this?… actually nothing.